Honest thoughts, not happy:
My head knows it’s not true, but my heart feels like a failure.
I am so close to giving up on my dream of marriage and a family because I just don’t see it happening anymore.
I love more than I am loved. This is always the case. And I rarely even get chances to find out if that might change.
I am so discouraged by the pattern of not being good enough to even be given a fair chance.
I don’t know why I try, anymore. Or why I should try.
I am very much defeated right now.